Chapter one is read by Jessica Anne Bogart. To read or listen to the whole book, buy the eBook and follow the reading and listening instructions beside the cover.
I want you to know how this one ends before it begins, because the ending is the whole argument.
A man stands on a tennis court in Melbourne in the January of twenty twenty-six. He is forty-four years old. He has not played a professional match in more than three years. The lights come up, and fifteen thousand people make the sound a crowd makes when it loves someone, and the man lifts one hand and his eyes go bright and wet, because that is what he does. He has always done it. He is the most composed athlete of his generation from the shoulders down and a complete catastrophe from the chin up, and the world has loved him for both halves in equal measure.
Six rows back, a woman watches him the way she has watched him for twenty-five years. She is not on the court. She has almost never been on the court. She does not wave at the cameras, and the cameras, after a quarter of a century of trying, have mostly learned to leave her alone. Her name is Mirka. She met him in an athletes village in Sydney when he was a boy with a temper and a beautiful forehand and no idea how to use either one, and she taught him, slowly, at some cost to herself, what discipline was, and then she folded her own career into his and never once asked for it back.
I will tell you something I believe about love, and then we can begin. The loud part is easy. Anyone can manage the loud part on a good day. The hard part is the quiet engine underneath, the person who decides, over and over, in rooms nobody photographs, to keep the whole operation pointed forward. This is a book about the loud one and the quiet one, and about which of them, in the end, was really holding the racquet.
Hold one sentence as you go, because the entire story hangs from it, and I intend to spend it carefully, the way you spend anything that is worth more than money. She could so easily have asked him to stop. You will hear it again in the middle, where he says a version of it himself, into a microphone, in front of the world, on the last night of his working life. You will hear it once more at the end. That is all. A sentence like that goes soft if you lean on it, and nothing in this marriage was ever soft in the load-bearing places.
Here is how the telling will work. The two of them take turns, chapter by chapter, her voice and then his, because a marriage is a duet and I refuse to score it as a solo with accompaniment. He has given thousands of interviews and she has given approximately one, which means his chapters come with receipts and hers come with the truer kind of evidence, the record of what she did. Do not worry about the imbalance. In this house the talking was never the measure of anything.
One warning, since you may have arrived here through the swamp of invented headlines that follows this couple around the internet like weather. There is no scandal in this book, because there is no scandal on the record. What there is instead is rarer and slower and better. Two athletes from one small country, one foot that gave out, one question asked over a kettle, one villa near Basel, two sets of twins, one long goodbye, and a woman who bought a pair of shoes.
The shoes come later. They are worth the wait.
One more thing before the lights go down. You are going to meet two Switzerlands in this book. There is the postcard one, the lakes and the punctual trains, and there is the working one underneath it, the country of people who emigrated into it with nothing and built lives with their hands, and this marriage was manufactured entirely in the second Switzerland. Keep that in mind whenever the story looks glamorous. Every glittering room in it was reached by two people who grew up believing that you earn the room, you arrive early to the room, and you leave the room tidier than you found it. The glamour is real, but it is rented. The discipline is owned outright.
It begins in Sydney, in the spring of the year two thousand, with a kiss that took two weeks to arrive.
That is chapter one.
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